Where do you go from here? Life has dealt your cards in a way that you could never have seen. Every brick that you built to construct your life has been torn down and you are left standing in a pile of rubble and dust. You are afraid, disorientated. . You go through a time of questioning. You question yourself. You question others. You even question the very reality that you stand in. It seems like none of it is real and you wish everyone could see things through your eyes so that you could finally be heard and understood. For some reason, that would make it all okay and all the answers would then be given.
You carry on. You perform tasks in a robotic mode while every thought is directed to the questions. You pay attention to them. You learn, know and understand at an accelerated pace trying to catch up to that ultimate bounty that always seems to escape you. The destruction has faded and the questions become the foreground. The questions seem to entice you to take each step forward.
You have learned many things. More than you thought you possibly could. You start to awaken and see the signs of being on the right path. You wish you knew. You wish you knew where it leads. You have never trusted your awareness before and it feels strange. There’s a part of you that wants to run back into the outdated ways. It was nice and secure there. You could predict everything like clockwork.
You are different to who you were. You have new expectations, values and desires. You feel like you are more in tact than you have ever been. You become grateful for the destruction you thought had robbed you. You have passed through a dark tunnel and have been birthed anew on the other side. You are only just starting to use your eyes for the first time.
Where do you go from here?